Psalm 127:3-5

"Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.

Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one's youth.

Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them!"

Psalm 127:3-5

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Nikita Frederick - In The Arms Of Jesus

Dear Nikita,
       
You stole our hearts.  You looked like your soon to be brother, Johnny, and sister Carolyn. You were lifted up in prayer constantly. You are LOVED. You are MISSED.  You no longer have Lukemia.  You are Happy. You are now in the arms of Jesus!


     
We grieve - not for you but for us!  We never got the chance to hold you.  We never got to kiss your sweet face.  We never got to tell you how much we love you.  We never got to celebrate your birthday WITH you.  We never got to give you the bear we made. We never got to play with you.  We never got to clothe you, feed you, change you, or wipe your tears.  We never got to hear you laugh or see your smile.  We never got the chance to hear a judge tell us that you were our son, however in our hearts you will ALWAYS be our little boy.  You are an arrow in our quiver, Nikita Frederick.
  
"Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD... Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them!" Psalm 127: 3 & 5
     
We praise God that our grieving is not hopeless.  "so that, having been justified by His grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life." Titus 3:7 Because of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ who died on the cross to pay for our sins we know that some day we will spend eternity together!

We love you, Nikita!


Hugs and Kisses, 
Momma, Daddy, Johnny, & Carolyn Joy
      


Dear Friends and Family,
  
It started out as a wonderful day.  Johnny, Carolyn and I drove down to Richmond to get  the LAST papers Apostilled for the Dossier.  The children were excited.  They knew that all this paper work stuff getting finished meant that it was getting closer to getting both their brothers home!  While waiting for the Apostille seals - Carolyn was holding and kissing both pictures of her soon to be brothers saying, "Dusty, Niki, Dusty, Niki..."  over and over again.



Then we drove back to Fredericksburg with ALL of our documents for the dossier and met Daddy at Fed Ex!  We put them in an envelope and sent them off to Eastern Europe!  





It was later Friday evening when we received word that it was NOT Dusty who had Leukemia, but it was Nikita.  They had mixed the boys up.  Then we were told that Nikita had been in a coma for a couple of days and passed away that day - Friday, February 25, 2011.


We are thankful to so many people for their prayers of healing for our little guy.  Yes, everyone was praying for Dusty, however, God knew who had Leukemia and He heard the prayers.  We were hoping for healing - this side of heaven.  It was God's will that he be healed - in heaven.  We are not at all sorry that we decided to pursue adopting Nikita.  We do believe with all of our heart that it was what God wanted us to do.  Nikita's life and our efforts were not in vain.  It was because of our love for Nikita that we found and fell in love with Dusty.  


"We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."  Romans 8:28 

Thank you for your continued prayers for our growing family!  We love you and appreciate all of your support as we grieve and as we heal!

In His Name and For His Purpose,
Amy, John, Johnny & Carolyn

36 comments:

  1. Sweet Nikita, I pray that he knew and knows now how much you love him, and maybe in his next life he will be close to you. Sleep well now Sweet boy.

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  2. oh, no, i cannot stop crying. i have been praying for nikita for about a year and a half and was SO EXCITED when your family committed to him. i am so, so very sorry for your deep loss of this sweet boy.

    tara

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  3. I don't know what to say but I am so so sorry.

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  4. My Heart goes out to you and I so admire your strength!!!! GOD's plan!!! Storming Heaven for your family!!!! Love to you all during this very difficult time!!! May you now Rest in Peace Sweet Nikita!!!!!

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  5. I am SO SO sorry to hear this! My family is praying for yours :(

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  6. I don't know you but I heard about Nikita through the RR yahoo group. I am so very sorry for your loss and we will be lifting your family up in prayer as you grieve.

    Blessings,
    Amy Peterson
    http://theleastofthesematthew2540.blogspot.com

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  7. I'm sorry that Nikita never got to know the love of a family here on earth. I am praying for your family.

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  8. I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for your family. My girls and I just loved and adored Nikita so much from the moment we found Reece's Rainbow! Praying for you guys.

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  9. I'm so sorry for the loss of Nikita, the little boy who was to be your son. Prayers for your family during this difficult time.

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  10. So so sorry for your loss! I am sure that little Nikita is up in Heaven watching over all of you and that he knows how much you love him!

    Catherine
    http://wronginalltherightways-travcat.blogspot.com

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  11. There are no words....I am sooo sooo sorry!! I can't imagine the sorrow in your heart right now. I pray that the Lord may grant you comfort as you walk the valley of the shadow of death.
    Love,
    Suzanne McDonald

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  12. Dear Amy & family,

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you. We are so sorry. We will be thinking of you and praying your adoption journey to Dusty goes smoothly.
    Patty

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  13. My heart breaks for your family. So sorry for your loss! Nikita is no longer an orphan, he lives now with our heavenly father.

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  14. I am heartbroken. Praying for you, that God will give you great comfort and clarity over the next few days. Dusty is so lucky to become your son!

    Corbett
    adopting Vlad
    www.bigvandlittlesy.blogspot.com

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  15. So sorry for your loss. God bless your family.

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  16. No words of comfort or wisdom, so I will just say that I am praying for you during this time and asking Abba to comfort you as only He can do. Praying also that all who read this will understand the DIRE need for these children to be adopted, loved, wanted. Our efforts are NOT in vain, no matter how small they may seem. ONE life at a time...because EVERY child matters!
    Love,
    Holly

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  17. oh I am SOO sorry! I can't imagine what you are going through! prayers for you and your family!

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  18. I am so very sorry. I just read this awful news on FB. May your sweet angel rest in peace.

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  19. Oh, I am so, so sad and sorry. What a precious boy he is. His picture always warmed my heart...though broke it knowing he so needed his family. You know that God allowed him to feel you your love. Right where he was. I have to think he saw the face of Jesus as innocent as he was. Your love was so real and so pure. I am sorry.

    God bless you.
    Gretchen

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  20. We are so sorry. We will continue to lift your family in prayer.

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  21. I really don't have anything different to say, other than I am too so so sorry. I was looking forward to seeing sweet Nikita home with his forever family. My heart breaks for your loss. I hope Dusty is in your arms soon! Prayers for you & your whole family, all 6 of you!!

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  22. am praying for your family. I can't imagine the loss you are feeling. Hoping you are finding comfort in knowing he is safe and sound right now. God Bless. <3

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  23. Thinking of you today. I'm sure you will always have a special place in your heart for Nikita.

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  24. So sorry for your loss Amy and John....The Lord has plans for your family and you know your little one will be in heaven watching your family grow and we will continue to pray for that....

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  25. We are so sorry for your loss Amy & John. We pray that God's plan is revealed to your family and that his will is for your family to continue to grow. May your little one in heaven watch his family grow.....

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  26. Oh my....there are no words. But we know for certain that God is good ALL the time and that your sweet baby is in the loving arms of his Savior. May God's grace and comfort wrap you and your family in His loving grip. Nikita, your life was purpose filled and your memory also...

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  27. Praying for you...I am so very sorry.

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  28. I am so so sad and so so sorry for you loss. I pray for your hearts to heal and for peace to be with you.

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  29. I am so sorry for your loss. Praying for you.

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  30. Just found your blog through another blog. Unfortunately I know a little too well what you are experiencing right now. We were matched with a waiting child from Ethiopia in October. She had clubfoot and we were waiting to get word about when she would be having surgery and when we would get a court date. Just three weeks after we were matched with her we received the news that she had passed away from SIDS at only 7 months old. We then accepted a referral of a baby boy, who we later found out has since been diagnosed with Down Syndrome. We travel to meet him this weekend.

    Adoption is such a difficult, and emotionally draining process. I pray that God will comfort you during this tragic time and that you will be able to bring your other little boy home quickly.

    http://crazycashclan.blogspot.com/

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  31. I admire your strength and wisdom in all of that, and thank God Nikita's suffering is over now. I cannot imagine how painful it is for you now, but I truly hope that you will see one another in heaven one day and embrace as family.

    Will continue to pray for you all.

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  32. Amy and John, we are so sorry about little Nikita. I have tried several times to post since Sunday but haven't been able to make this thing work. But our prayers and hearts have been with you since then and we will continue to pray for strength and peace for you all and precious Dusty. May you feel the warmth of His love all around you.

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  33. praying for you! I had a little one I was planning on adopting but the courts placed her back with her bio mama. (she is in Guatemala)

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  34. I am so sorry. I have no idea how you are feeling. This is tragic. Awful. I pray that God helps you to grieve and your children as well. Allow yourself to grieve like a mother who lost her child because you did. We had a failed adoption which is in no way the same as what you are going through but our family grieved and people didnt understand, how could we grieve we had never met her. People dont understand but God does and he is there for you. I pray He gives you strength and one day he will turn your mourning into dancing.

    Be blessed
    Ashlee
    http://ourjourneytoadoption.beckfamily143.com/

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  35. Nikita will always be alive as long as you remember him......keep doing what you are doing for Dusty and Sonya they are both precious!....good things will happen! Love you all. Debbie and John

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